My Mid-Life Release

long road

Last month, I became one year older. It was quite celebratory and I was actually really proud and quite happy for this birthday more so than any other in recent years. I figure that I am just about at the middle of my road, halfway through my life journey. Now, now, there is no need for any tears, but I appreciate you caring. I’ve been blessed with and have managed to live more than 40+ years. There has been some sadness, but a whole lot of joy and anticipation continues to be a steady in my life. For all of it, I am thankful.

Each of the experiences I have had played a part in shaping who I am today. I can honestly say that although I have made some decisions in my life I don’t view as maybe being the best, they were good at the time, and I have a comfort knowing that I don’t have any regrets. Why, because there isn’t anything I can do about the past, but I am ready and on board to make my present and future reflective of the many lessons I have already learned.

Right now, I am at a point in my life where I realize there are quite far less situations I am willing to tolerate. I was more accepting of different circumstances a few years ago and even as recently as a few months ago, but today, not any longer. Rolling with the flow and watching from the sidelines was alright (or at least I thought it was) for a while, but I slowly saw it creating a new me where I evolved into one functioning with a victim mentality and just existing in life.

I have always believed that one shouldn’t be just a participant, but an ACTIVE participant in life. There is a difference. All you have to do is show up (wake up every morning) and you will be called a participant. It’s what you do (your actions) with the rest of your day/life that determines if you actually participated. The victim mentality is only nursed by an individual and lately, I have been that individual.

Every day is a new day and one where we have a new start. If we failed today, then there is always tomorrow! Right? Don’t get me wrong. I am thankful for each day that God continues to bless me with, but seriously, I’m tired of starting over. I want to learn my lesson or reach that goal that I set for myself and move onto something new. Continually returning to the beginning and having to start all over again gets old. My days are numbered. I’ve already lived close to half of my life and I desire so much for the second part of my story to be really, really good.

For all of my years the past few months, God has been working on something really special in my life. There is nothing like getting “worked over” by God. He had been trying to get close to me for a while now and I kept pushing Him aside and telling Him, “Not now because I’m in control, I can handle it.” Well, I couldn’t and it was so wonderful to be able to fall back into His arms. Now, with everything I do, I ask Him to lead and I follow. Whew! Life is so much easier because I believe wholeheartedly that He is in control. There are still challenges, but I love my life and am excited about experiencing my life in His abundance, rather than in what I can do as well as reaching His heights rather than as far as I can see, because I wear prescription glasses when I can find them.

The road is open. I’m sporting a new pair of running shoes and I am ready to continue my new life journey. His will be done.

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